You are not alone. You may feel alone, but believe me, you are not alone. The best thing that I did was reach out, so please, if you feel you are unsafe, please reach out. Here are just a small selection of options available to us in New Zealand.
1737, Need to talk? Text or Call for free to speak to trained counsellor
YouthLine 0800 376 633
Lifeline 0800 543 354
Kidsline 0800 54 37 54
Anxiety NZ 0800 ANXIETY (0800 269 4389)